Friday, October 28, 2005
Book ClubThe one I never was, by Majgull Axelsson
"In a room at the Hospital Karolinska is Sverker. He has been on a business trip to East Europe, bought himself a hooker, went into trouble and is now connected to a respirator, with a broken back totally paralyzed. Next to him sits his since before stressed out wife Mary Marie, tired and angry of insanity. The shock and anger has made her speech less and the only word she capable to say is “albatross” – a word connected to guilt and safeness, both escapes and still standing. She can’t stand it. She rises walking towards his bed.
We will stop there for one moment.
When we will press play again it has two possibility options:
- She pulls out the cable from the respirator.
- She does not pull out the cable.
What she decides to do reflect her future, which she will become and the one she will not be. “The one I never was” is about Mary Marie and we will follow her teenage grown up to a middle age woman all happenings between. Its about politics, prisons, love affairs… but all circulate around that second of moment were she do kill her husband – or – lets her husbands to live. This only second of moment when nothing still has happened but all still can change.
Seven years later we will follow the results of these two possible happenings; she will be a murderer and go to prison or she will take care of her invalid husband and she will make a carrier on a minister post. In the book we will never know which one is the true Mary Marie or the woman in her fantasies. Both of them are known to each other. And still so very different futures both of them will end up at the same point: that she/them has to live with guild, the albatross on the throat, or get rid of it. None of the roads is correct – if one of them was lead to happiness it would have been perfect. But life is not that easy…"
Yesterday I went to my monthly meeting at the book club. We are a group of 10 people reading all same books and on our meetings we are discussing last book read. This book from my point of view started quite uninteresting but more read it I became more spellbound of content. It may you think about your own destiny and how circumstances can change your path drastically however the true written destiny can never be changed. It is all written there for you.
/M
